Yes, I am really busy this semester. You know what, I'm so busy I feel I should stop working so hard. I am suddenly aware today that I have been neglecting my family. I value my family a lot cos I know that they are the ones who will stand by me in all circumstances. They are the ones I never doubt that love will come from. And I'm really sad that I have to be told to call my dad cos itz his birthday today. I've never called home ever since arriving in US. Not a phone call to my dad, nor my sisters... Though I do recieve emails from them once in a while. Even my daily phone calls to Dear dear has shortened to 5mins or maybe a little more.

I'm very very disappointed in myself. But I think it's not my fault, or maybe only partially. I should not have let an incapable person lead a group of 14. I should have taken the position from the very start. I think I'll do less when I become the leader cos I can utilise manpower much better than him. His standards are so low, it's lower than low. I can't believe it. And he even has the cheek to ask the 5 ppl who did everything to do even more. I wonder why ppl can be so thick-skinned. I've already stayed up till 2-3am for 3 nights in the past week just so as to clear up his mess. If I have to clear up his mess every single time, I'll be better off doing the project with just Lemuel, CH, Charles, and Jonathon... 5 ppl is all I need to do a better job than 14 ppl with that guy as the lead.

If a leader does not even know his specifications, how can he lead? If he can't distribute workload, how can he lead? If he does not know what is required of the report, how can he lead? If he sets a really low standard, how can he lead? I regret my choice now.